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We'll take it in order.
1. Guess who is going to the premiere of TTT? I´ll give you a hint, it´s not me.
Malin got a ticket to go with some Tolkien society and they are going to dress upp etc. I know I´m stupid, but I just feel a bit betrayed since we made a pact to go see it together for the first time. And I've devoted the last year to LOTR together with her and we'd longed to see it together. I know I´m exaggerating but I feel like I´ve wasted an entire year.
There´s no point in seeing it anymore. When should we see it? We had planned to go see it together after X-mas. Before´the 23rd we have no money and on the 23rd it´s the day before X-mas when you should be all excited about X-mas and do the last preparations. If we see it on the 23rd it will completely take over x-mas. I just feel like everything´s been destroyed. If I see it after her it will be at least two weeks since she´s seen it and she´ll have the upperhand. It was supposed to be *our* thing, esp. since she'd promised to see FOTR with me and then she went ahead and saw it with her mother anyway! She´s said "But I won´t do the same thing next year, I´ll swear TTT will be *our* thing." I know this opportunity just showed up at her dorstep, and she didn´t plan it, but she could have said no.
And now she's like "But I deserve it, because I'm the bigger fan than you"!
I´ve devoted an entire year also!
The worst thing is that it´s on my birthday, the 17th. She has to leave real early too, so not only is she leaving me to go see TTT without me, she´s also leaving me alone on my birthday. She left me alone on my 20th b-day to go to a party and she swore she would never do it again. I know I´ll have more bithdays and this is nothing special but still. I don´t want to be alone! I told her she could go to the premiere because I don't want to be the evil person who destroys everything for her, but I feel really shitty. I know I should be happy for her, but I just can't. I don´t tell her this though because she should be allowed to be happy.
2. I´m going tomorrow to Luleå to visit my parents since I won´t be going home this Christmas. It feels weird to go home in the middle of schoolwork. I´ve never done that before. But it´ll be nice to fly, and it will be great fun to see mum and dad. It feels sad to not be going home for Christmas. :-(
I´ll be home on 9 December and then I´ll make sure to update this LJ.
3. Annie´s Song is one of my favourites but there´s something I´ve always wondered. He sings:
"Come let me love you
Let me give my life to you
let me drown in your laughter
let me die in your arms."
At first I thought the dying part was just metaphorical because he would drown in her laughter, but now I´m wondering if he meant it literally. Did he write it for a girlfriend who was a lot younger? Or was he very ill at some point?
1. Guess who is going to the premiere of TTT? I´ll give you a hint, it´s not me.
Malin got a ticket to go with some Tolkien society and they are going to dress upp etc. I know I´m stupid, but I just feel a bit betrayed since we made a pact to go see it together for the first time. And I've devoted the last year to LOTR together with her and we'd longed to see it together. I know I´m exaggerating but I feel like I´ve wasted an entire year.
There´s no point in seeing it anymore. When should we see it? We had planned to go see it together after X-mas. Before´the 23rd we have no money and on the 23rd it´s the day before X-mas when you should be all excited about X-mas and do the last preparations. If we see it on the 23rd it will completely take over x-mas. I just feel like everything´s been destroyed. If I see it after her it will be at least two weeks since she´s seen it and she´ll have the upperhand. It was supposed to be *our* thing, esp. since she'd promised to see FOTR with me and then she went ahead and saw it with her mother anyway! She´s said "But I won´t do the same thing next year, I´ll swear TTT will be *our* thing." I know this opportunity just showed up at her dorstep, and she didn´t plan it, but she could have said no.
And now she's like "But I deserve it, because I'm the bigger fan than you"!
I´ve devoted an entire year also!
The worst thing is that it´s on my birthday, the 17th. She has to leave real early too, so not only is she leaving me to go see TTT without me, she´s also leaving me alone on my birthday. She left me alone on my 20th b-day to go to a party and she swore she would never do it again. I know I´ll have more bithdays and this is nothing special but still. I don´t want to be alone! I told her she could go to the premiere because I don't want to be the evil person who destroys everything for her, but I feel really shitty. I know I should be happy for her, but I just can't. I don´t tell her this though because she should be allowed to be happy.
2. I´m going tomorrow to Luleå to visit my parents since I won´t be going home this Christmas. It feels weird to go home in the middle of schoolwork. I´ve never done that before. But it´ll be nice to fly, and it will be great fun to see mum and dad. It feels sad to not be going home for Christmas. :-(
I´ll be home on 9 December and then I´ll make sure to update this LJ.
3. Annie´s Song is one of my favourites but there´s something I´ve always wondered. He sings:
"Come let me love you
Let me give my life to you
let me drown in your laughter
let me die in your arms."
At first I thought the dying part was just metaphorical because he would drown in her laughter, but now I´m wondering if he meant it literally. Did he write it for a girlfriend who was a lot younger? Or was he very ill at some point?
