Some kind of saviour

I said something homophobic tonight, namely the slur cocksucker. In Swedish.

Here's how it happened:

I decided to go jogging tonight. As I jog by a group of drunk friends I'm keeping a fairly slow pace because I'm still at the point where I'm unfit. One of the guys takes a few steps into the lane towards me and says "Damn you're sexy" in a sarcastic voice.

This has happened to me once before when I was walking home from the gym in my training clothes. (See a theme here?) Then it was a guy who leaned out of a car window and shouted it at me. I didn't say anything then and I was upset for days. This time I decided to say something.

I keep running and as I'm passing the guy I shout "Go to hell you damn cocksucker!"

One of his friends said in a surprised voice, "but he hasn't sucked anyone!"
On my way back I went another way so I didn't pass them again.

There are two aspects here.

1) I am extremely happy that I responded and insulted the guy.

2) It was in way shape or form okay that I used a homophobic slur to do it.

First of all, I hate that word and the whole concept of crude descriptions for sex acts and the people who do them.

Secondly, I contributed to the notion that having sex with men makes you less of a man or that there is something bad with being gay.

What if there was a closeted gay man among that group of friends and hearing my call out that slur in anger made him feel bad? What if I reinforced to that drunk guy that homophobic slurs are okay?

A word is "Just a word" when people forget about it. When you're there to remember it and be hurt by it, it can be a big deal.