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Aug. 12th, 2005 01:48 pmYesterday I cleaned the apartment for the last time. ;_;
Last night Malin came into to sit on my bed and say goodnight and that's one of the last times she'll ever do that. On Monday our living together ends. Getting up to go to the bath room in the middle of the night she won't be there, chatting on her computer. The feeling that she's in the house, even if we don't talk to each other, will be hard to getting used to.
As of next week I won't be living with her anymore for the first time since February 1999.
It's so tragic. Here I've got this wonderful person whose offering me companionship and love and an escape from the mundaneness of the world and I'm throwing it all away.
She's sad as well. It will be hard on us both come Monday. She's been so set on me moving but now when the date is approaching she's very sad. We both act like it's not happening and make plans for food, cleaning etc like we've always done. She actually cares about the cleaning now, wanting it to be clean for me even though I'll only live here for three more days... ;_;
We've made a date to go out next week.
Today is the last day of work before my vacation. When I come back I'll be living somewhere else. I went with Anette to lunch and she pressed me for details about the break-up but I declined. I bought treats for the coffee break since it's the last day I work before my vacation.
I'm also sad that I've left all of Malin's other personas behind, but more about that later. Right now, Malin is the important one (to me.) The picture-taking is coming along nicely.
Last night Malin came into to sit on my bed and say goodnight and that's one of the last times she'll ever do that. On Monday our living together ends. Getting up to go to the bath room in the middle of the night she won't be there, chatting on her computer. The feeling that she's in the house, even if we don't talk to each other, will be hard to getting used to.
As of next week I won't be living with her anymore for the first time since February 1999.
It's so tragic. Here I've got this wonderful person whose offering me companionship and love and an escape from the mundaneness of the world and I'm throwing it all away.
She's sad as well. It will be hard on us both come Monday. She's been so set on me moving but now when the date is approaching she's very sad. We both act like it's not happening and make plans for food, cleaning etc like we've always done. She actually cares about the cleaning now, wanting it to be clean for me even though I'll only live here for three more days... ;_;
We've made a date to go out next week.
Today is the last day of work before my vacation. When I come back I'll be living somewhere else. I went with Anette to lunch and she pressed me for details about the break-up but I declined. I bought treats for the coffee break since it's the last day I work before my vacation.
I'm also sad that I've left all of Malin's other personas behind, but more about that later. Right now, Malin is the important one (to me.) The picture-taking is coming along nicely.
