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Jun. 7th, 2005 10:02 amNot to be over-dramatic, but today my new life starts.
No, I haven't moved away from Malin or quit my job. I've just wiped the slate clean and come to a heck of a lot of conclusions. My mind can't take it otherwise.
I want to be healthy. I've always considered myself to be a sane person, and so it was very unnerving that I had a mental break down over the weekend. I was terrified. I don't want to become insane. I felt that my body stopped functioning. I didn't know who I was. I had godawful panic attacks. I felt like I was going to end up in the mental ward. Really horrible. To not know who you are is pretty terrifying.
I've a pretty fragile mind, yeah, I know... :-) I'm home from work by the way, which is hardly a surprise if you've read this post. :-)
Anyway, wrote a decree. Wiping the slate clean. Want to not become insane.
I want to be normal.
No, I haven't moved away from Malin or quit my job. I've just wiped the slate clean and come to a heck of a lot of conclusions. My mind can't take it otherwise.
I want to be healthy. I've always considered myself to be a sane person, and so it was very unnerving that I had a mental break down over the weekend. I was terrified. I don't want to become insane. I felt that my body stopped functioning. I didn't know who I was. I had godawful panic attacks. I felt like I was going to end up in the mental ward. Really horrible. To not know who you are is pretty terrifying.
I've a pretty fragile mind, yeah, I know... :-) I'm home from work by the way, which is hardly a surprise if you've read this post. :-)
Anyway, wrote a decree. Wiping the slate clean. Want to not become insane.
I want to be normal.
