Well, the vaping part of my life is over :-/

At least the day-to-day kind. I found this place that sells these swanky disposable 12 mg pens that I'm going to get for special occasions, not more often than once every two weeks.

I got my first vaping device in spring of 2014 after being nicotine-free for seven years. I had really missed smoking, which I had given up for health reasons, and was so happy I got a good alternative.

I started at 18 mg and at one point - in 2015 - I vaped 24 mg every single day. I went down to 18, then 12, then I stopped vaping Mondays through Thursday, then I had a 10-day vaping break, and then, today, my vaping device broke. I threw it and my e-juices away.

It's sad. I have so many happy memories from vaping; writing fic, watching SPN, being drunk, listening to great music. Sadly, I've programmed my brain to expect the rush of nicotine to heighten emotions. Whenever I get really excited about something; a fantastic concert or a story, I need a hit of nicotine to "top it off." It's like I can't get to that height on my own.

Nicotine's an amazing drug. But I don't like being addicted. I want to be able to get natural highs.

Imagine these are hysterical Tumblr hashtags

 Yes, I'm drunk. On a Sunday. But it's to celebrate/commiserate getting off nicotine. At least the regular habit. I found these swanky disposable e-cigs I'll be getting for special occasions. But between "special occasions" I'll be nicotine free. And that's scary as shit. So alcohol it is!