Out into the real (?) world.... Help!
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kribbanToday is graduation day, my last probably, since I've decided after 4,5 years and a BA that I don't afford to spend my last 3 semesters of student loan just yet. It's time to work. I don't have the first clue what to do this fall! Or this summer! I'm going to summer school but I don't have a job. I've applied for three but not gotten any. One of them, I've been bothering the employer about every week since January. Yesterday I got an e-mail from him saying that I might get a job there in September but I need it now. Sure it's great that I'll get it this September but it's only part time and I need a full time job then. Unless I can find another part time job?
*growls* I have a BA and I will still have to apply for stupid jobs, which is OK, only I fear walking into an old classmate who says "Oh, you're working in a grocery store, I thought you would go to college." Then I'll snort "Well, I did! there are just no jobs for philosophers!" I'm thinking of adding my title in the phone book (like people do) so that everyone will know what I did. My aunt has stopped writing "Ms. Kristina Johansson" and started writing "Fil.Kand. Kristina Johansson" on her envelopes which makes me very happy.
What happened yesterday? Well my final "proper" day at school, the last day of the semester, was long. I slept a little and got up early and showered and dressed as I told you yesterday. The presentations took long due to the server suddenly deciding it didn't want to display websites anymore and we having to wait an hour for it to be fixed. We weren't done until 16:40 and then I went and fixed myself up a bit before going to the park/acres/open air museum/student pub/recreation area "Rudan" which is on the other side of the rail road from school. I can't believe I've never been there before! It was so lovely!
The day had gone fine, I was a little nauseous but I didn't throw up. I got real sick at the party. We ate chorizo with mayonaise heavy potatosalad and lots of chilinuts and nachos. I ate too much. It was horrible. I thought I would throw up. The sun was shining and it was really, really hot. I walked away to a little clearing where I walked around with my water bottle, feeling the grass under my feet. I felt so miserable but people were so nice to me. A girl called Sofia came up to me and asked how I was feeling, and she walked me to where I could pee (in the wild!) and talked to me and helped me get water. She gave me stomach acid medicine and was real sweet. I went back to the clearing and two other people, a guy and girl, came and started talking to me, asked if I wouldn't feel better if I would throw up etc. I wanted to but I didn't want to force it. I'm scared of relying too much on vomiting instead of learning the body to deal with nausea the normal way. The girl asked "What can we do?" The guy, Joakim, sat with me in the clearing away from the party and talked with me for almost 30 minutes until I was feeling better, and suggested what could be wrong. After an hour I started feeling fine again. And I did it without throwing up!
The rest of the party was nice. We sat and talked. I ate the candy, drank the rest of my wine and water and smoked. Most of us ran for the nine o'clock train and as always it was a short train that stopped at the other end of the platform and we had to run all the way. I had high heels and never thought I'd make it but some other classmates held the door open for us and cheered when we were all inside. We all laughed but the driver was annoyed. I got off four stops later to catch my train home to Södertalje and I said goodbye to all of them, most of which I will never meet again. (Some I will see when summerclass starts next week.) It was a very nice party despite the nausea. I was home at 22:20 after two trains and a bus and 14 1/2 hours!
Now it's 13:45 on Friday the 6th and it's graduation day in most schools and also Sweden's National Day. I got up at nine and I've done all my cleaning and showering. As soon as I'm dry I'll put on my new dress and shoes and go into town, as I always do on graduation day, to buy flowers and what food and pastry I need for today. I've got 200 SEK from my parents (I always get money on this day) and I will spend at least some of it. We always make lasagne on this day, a tradition I picked up from mom, and I always make a chocholate cake, usually from a package. Devil Food today perhaps? I always buy strawberries, cheeze doodles and wine. No wine today though, but I'll buy everything else I always buy. And tonight when Malin comes home the boys are coming over and we'll eat and wear our caps. Today is the only day it is "allowed" to wear your student cap and you see people with caps in various shades of yellow. Mine is only a bit yellow since I "only" graduated five years ago.God, I'm old. It will be a lovely night, I know that. I think I'll buy cider for the strawberries instead of wine. Now I just have to figure out what to do with the rest of my life!
*growls* I have a BA and I will still have to apply for stupid jobs, which is OK, only I fear walking into an old classmate who says "Oh, you're working in a grocery store, I thought you would go to college." Then I'll snort "Well, I did! there are just no jobs for philosophers!" I'm thinking of adding my title in the phone book (like people do) so that everyone will know what I did. My aunt has stopped writing "Ms. Kristina Johansson" and started writing "Fil.Kand. Kristina Johansson" on her envelopes which makes me very happy.
What happened yesterday? Well my final "proper" day at school, the last day of the semester, was long. I slept a little and got up early and showered and dressed as I told you yesterday. The presentations took long due to the server suddenly deciding it didn't want to display websites anymore and we having to wait an hour for it to be fixed. We weren't done until 16:40 and then I went and fixed myself up a bit before going to the park/acres/open air museum/student pub/recreation area "Rudan" which is on the other side of the rail road from school. I can't believe I've never been there before! It was so lovely!
The day had gone fine, I was a little nauseous but I didn't throw up. I got real sick at the party. We ate chorizo with mayonaise heavy potatosalad and lots of chilinuts and nachos. I ate too much. It was horrible. I thought I would throw up. The sun was shining and it was really, really hot. I walked away to a little clearing where I walked around with my water bottle, feeling the grass under my feet. I felt so miserable but people were so nice to me. A girl called Sofia came up to me and asked how I was feeling, and she walked me to where I could pee (in the wild!) and talked to me and helped me get water. She gave me stomach acid medicine and was real sweet. I went back to the clearing and two other people, a guy and girl, came and started talking to me, asked if I wouldn't feel better if I would throw up etc. I wanted to but I didn't want to force it. I'm scared of relying too much on vomiting instead of learning the body to deal with nausea the normal way. The girl asked "What can we do?" The guy, Joakim, sat with me in the clearing away from the party and talked with me for almost 30 minutes until I was feeling better, and suggested what could be wrong. After an hour I started feeling fine again. And I did it without throwing up!
The rest of the party was nice. We sat and talked. I ate the candy, drank the rest of my wine and water and smoked. Most of us ran for the nine o'clock train and as always it was a short train that stopped at the other end of the platform and we had to run all the way. I had high heels and never thought I'd make it but some other classmates held the door open for us and cheered when we were all inside. We all laughed but the driver was annoyed. I got off four stops later to catch my train home to Södertalje and I said goodbye to all of them, most of which I will never meet again. (Some I will see when summerclass starts next week.) It was a very nice party despite the nausea. I was home at 22:20 after two trains and a bus and 14 1/2 hours!
Now it's 13:45 on Friday the 6th and it's graduation day in most schools and also Sweden's National Day. I got up at nine and I've done all my cleaning and showering. As soon as I'm dry I'll put on my new dress and shoes and go into town, as I always do on graduation day, to buy flowers and what food and pastry I need for today. I've got 200 SEK from my parents (I always get money on this day) and I will spend at least some of it. We always make lasagne on this day, a tradition I picked up from mom, and I always make a chocholate cake, usually from a package. Devil Food today perhaps? I always buy strawberries, cheeze doodles and wine. No wine today though, but I'll buy everything else I always buy. And tonight when Malin comes home the boys are coming over and we'll eat and wear our caps. Today is the only day it is "allowed" to wear your student cap and you see people with caps in various shades of yellow. Mine is only a bit yellow since I "only" graduated five years ago.
