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Dec. 1st, 2005 05:42 pmIt was quiet at work today. I saved my breaks and went down to the company gym around three thirty, had a good work-out on the crosstrainer and showered. After work my department (all seven of us) went to a new restaurant for bi-annual department fun.
In the beginning, as I was getting a bit drunk, I had an attack of anxiety. I have these moments when I think about what it is to be a human, what my body is, what happens when you die etc. I'm usually a very shallow and grounded person, but I have these moments when I start thinking about these things and I feel I may float away with the burden of it. My no. 1 fear is losing my mind, but it's not going to happen. Södertälje feels alien sometimes lately. It's probably because it's so connected to my past and becayse I don't feel at home in the neighbourhood I live now.
Dinner was nice though I got a bit sick (physically.) When I came home the phone was ringing. It was my mom who was worried about me. I had accidentally called their number on my cell phone and they had heard me walking to my home. I assured them I was fine.
Tomorrow I, for once, will go directly home after work rather than go to the gym. I'm going to the gym on Saturday with Malin instead so I get tomorrow "off." Now it's time for bed.
In the beginning, as I was getting a bit drunk, I had an attack of anxiety. I have these moments when I think about what it is to be a human, what my body is, what happens when you die etc. I'm usually a very shallow and grounded person, but I have these moments when I start thinking about these things and I feel I may float away with the burden of it. My no. 1 fear is losing my mind, but it's not going to happen. Södertälje feels alien sometimes lately. It's probably because it's so connected to my past and becayse I don't feel at home in the neighbourhood I live now.
Dinner was nice though I got a bit sick (physically.) When I came home the phone was ringing. It was my mom who was worried about me. I had accidentally called their number on my cell phone and they had heard me walking to my home. I assured them I was fine.
Tomorrow I, for once, will go directly home after work rather than go to the gym. I'm going to the gym on Saturday with Malin instead so I get tomorrow "off." Now it's time for bed.