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Just home from exam, the final test of Course from Hell, taking place at the end of the world. Or rather, on the one location that hardly anyone knew where it was or how to get there. Planned to meet friends at trainstop. But then on the train I become sick and I thought 'Hey, motion sickness+five hours of sleep, I´ll be fine'. But then I become really sick, like I´m about to throw up any minute. I panic, because you really don´t want to vomit on the train and I don´t have any water or paper with me, or even any candy. So I stood up in front of the doors and hung on to the pole being so desperate that I was loudly praying to God and babbling incoherently. You know how you get when you´re really, really sick and you know you´re going to throw up in front of everyone? People were probably thinking that I was insane or on drugs :-)
Then i start shaking and feeling faint. My head and body feels like a carbonated drink, all fizzy and bubbles. Just like when you´re really drunk, but ten times worse and NOT pleasant. My eyes go completely white and I see stars and there´s a pressure in my chest. Hot and clammy and cold and shivering all at the same time. And I´m like "What am I going to do, should I step off a few stops earlier and just fuck the exam, or shall I try to get to my stop anyway because my friends are waiting for me..." I wait until my stop when I stumble out, my veins feel like they´re filled with coca cola and the world is just white flashes of light. I sit on the first bench I see and breathe the cold air. That does the trick. After a minute my vision has turned somewhat normal, the pounding and nausea is mostly gone and I manage to stand up and go meet my friends. They look at me and tell me I am pale as corpse and wonder what I´ve done. We find our fourth member who gives us a ride to the location that few can find without further dramatics.
I´m all right now, and the exam went fine, and I´m really happy that this course is finally over. It wsa just so scary! I´ve never fainted or anything like that and I´ve never felt such a thing before. I talked to a classmate on the train home and she told me that something like that had happened her on the commute train in Spain and isn't it scary. I agreed. I´ve probably never been that scared in ten years.
But, am fine now. Home. School work done. Flat is cleaned and chores are done. I´ll print out the Urgent Action to write tomorrow. So I´m free to enjoy the day. I *do* have e-mails to write and fic writing to do, but I'll try to relax about it and not feel like "these are chores that I must do today." I´ll do them later. For now I have to make a dough (am baking bread today) and do the honey-chili marinade for the chicken. I think I´ll have a long over due bath and sleep a few hours. Yeah. Sleep. That will be nice. Also must resist the urge to crack open the books and learnlearnlearn. If the exam is over, you need not remember the information anymore!
Then i start shaking and feeling faint. My head and body feels like a carbonated drink, all fizzy and bubbles. Just like when you´re really drunk, but ten times worse and NOT pleasant. My eyes go completely white and I see stars and there´s a pressure in my chest. Hot and clammy and cold and shivering all at the same time. And I´m like "What am I going to do, should I step off a few stops earlier and just fuck the exam, or shall I try to get to my stop anyway because my friends are waiting for me..." I wait until my stop when I stumble out, my veins feel like they´re filled with coca cola and the world is just white flashes of light. I sit on the first bench I see and breathe the cold air. That does the trick. After a minute my vision has turned somewhat normal, the pounding and nausea is mostly gone and I manage to stand up and go meet my friends. They look at me and tell me I am pale as corpse and wonder what I´ve done. We find our fourth member who gives us a ride to the location that few can find without further dramatics.
I´m all right now, and the exam went fine, and I´m really happy that this course is finally over. It wsa just so scary! I´ve never fainted or anything like that and I´ve never felt such a thing before. I talked to a classmate on the train home and she told me that something like that had happened her on the commute train in Spain and isn't it scary. I agreed. I´ve probably never been that scared in ten years.
But, am fine now. Home. School work done. Flat is cleaned and chores are done. I´ll print out the Urgent Action to write tomorrow. So I´m free to enjoy the day. I *do* have e-mails to write and fic writing to do, but I'll try to relax about it and not feel like "these are chores that I must do today." I´ll do them later. For now I have to make a dough (am baking bread today) and do the honey-chili marinade for the chicken. I think I´ll have a long over due bath and sleep a few hours. Yeah. Sleep. That will be nice. Also must resist the urge to crack open the books and learnlearnlearn. If the exam is over, you need not remember the information anymore!
