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In 30 minutes my cousin comes to pick me up. I'm going to the extended relations gettogether in Närke for the weekend. My mother turns 60 in October and is going to have a party to celebrate that. (She did the same in 1995 when she turned 50, thus ensuring that as few relatives as possible show up at her house for her birthday. :-)

I'm feeling rather well at the moment. Not like myself, but calm. Yesterday I had a horrible anxiety attack during lunch where I felt that I hated myself, that I wanted out of my body, that I didn't know or like who I was. But it passed (the shrink taught me how to breathe :-) and I felt calm yesterday evening.

I'm deliberately not thinking about these things so much.

I think it will be good for me to see mom and dad for two days. Malin will not come with me (she got off the hook when we broke up) and will stay up watching Live 8 instead. I have brought my books to read during the good and quiet moments.

See you all next week. Have a great weekend!