Ten years ago!
Dec. 13th, 2011 08:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kribbanHappy Lucia!
I remember this day 10 years ago (Yep, Lucia 2001 for those of you who can't count). I was at home in the old apartment in Geneta and was studying for a Philosophy exam. I had just handed in the draft for my essay and was riding on the wave of relief after some intense stress.
The first Harry Potter film and the first Lord of the Rings film was just around the corner for me. I had, however, been reading fanfiction for Harry Potter for a whole year by this time.
I had gotten up early to watch the ceremonies on TV and was eating rice pudding with cinnamon, sugar and milk; my traditional Lucia food. I was checking an interesting "After the war" Harry Potter fic (Title: "Those who survived", yep, still remember it.) I think I had saffron buns baked already, but I'm not sure.![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
silversolitaire sent med an E-card. I saw a promo for Ocean's Eleven on the TV.
To summarize: I felt really good that day; enjoying my Christmas-decorated home (cheap suburbian rental flat that it was), enjoying the calm, the Holiday spirit and my accomplishments.
I was almost 22 years old, and I felt very grown-up and comfortable in my own skin. I don't remember having any OCD-fears or negative thoughts (as I'm having now) and I was optimistic and confident. I felt normal and like a good person. My brother had stopped using drugs earlier that year and was visiting a lot.
I also had some really crappy parts in my life and personality, and I would never want to turn back time. But it is interesting and a bit sad to see how in some ways, I was calmer then. I didn't obsess about Internet discussions and I wasn't lonely.
Today, I did some chores but have spent most of it failing at being a student and failing at not getting upset over Internet debates. I'm devolving! :D
I remember this day 10 years ago (Yep, Lucia 2001 for those of you who can't count). I was at home in the old apartment in Geneta and was studying for a Philosophy exam. I had just handed in the draft for my essay and was riding on the wave of relief after some intense stress.
The first Harry Potter film and the first Lord of the Rings film was just around the corner for me. I had, however, been reading fanfiction for Harry Potter for a whole year by this time.
I had gotten up early to watch the ceremonies on TV and was eating rice pudding with cinnamon, sugar and milk; my traditional Lucia food. I was checking an interesting "After the war" Harry Potter fic (Title: "Those who survived", yep, still remember it.) I think I had saffron buns baked already, but I'm not sure.
silversolitaire sent med an E-card. I saw a promo for Ocean's Eleven on the TV. To summarize: I felt really good that day; enjoying my Christmas-decorated home (cheap suburbian rental flat that it was), enjoying the calm, the Holiday spirit and my accomplishments.
I was almost 22 years old, and I felt very grown-up and comfortable in my own skin. I don't remember having any OCD-fears or negative thoughts (as I'm having now) and I was optimistic and confident. I felt normal and like a good person. My brother had stopped using drugs earlier that year and was visiting a lot.
I also had some really crappy parts in my life and personality, and I would never want to turn back time. But it is interesting and a bit sad to see how in some ways, I was calmer then. I didn't obsess about Internet discussions and I wasn't lonely.
Today, I did some chores but have spent most of it failing at being a student and failing at not getting upset over Internet debates. I'm devolving! :D
