Another year gone by
May. 1st, 2017 09:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kribbanYesterday was Valpurgis Eve, and it was okay. It wasn't fun, even though M was over and we had the exact same food as we always have, and champagne as we always have. It wasn't bad, either. It was like every single other holiday these last couple of years; sufficient.
The last holiday I really enjoyed was my birthday in 2015. I keep repeating the formula, without getting the same results.
I'm not happy.
I'm not unhappy. I'm not suffering and I don't have any huge life problems. I'm just not happy, and that's okay.
The happiest I've ever been was spring 2014. I probably won't feel that way again for a long time, and that's okay too.
The last holiday I really enjoyed was my birthday in 2015. I keep repeating the formula, without getting the same results.
I'm not happy.
I'm not unhappy. I'm not suffering and I don't have any huge life problems. I'm just not happy, and that's okay.
The happiest I've ever been was spring 2014. I probably won't feel that way again for a long time, and that's okay too.
